choices

what influence our choices?

music? our surroundings? other people's opinions? the media? our own logical thinking patterns? we will never know or truly understand since every moment that passes by leaves us with our decisions and we never get to peek into the plans of the other universes that have been set out for us. how sad must that be. a better (or worst) life is just out there. a complete different reality, barely beyond the touch of our fingers but we are confined to the decisions in the moment. and it isn't even always our own. 

what leads us to make the choices we choose in the end? maybe somewhere somehow, the universe grants us an understanding into the reality of the other possible choices. in the end, how can we ever know? 

how troublesome our hearts must be, to live in the unknown. to carry the heavy aches of what could have been. we are prisoners of the unknown. we are trapped in an existence of our own choices based on our limited knowledge and understanding of life.

alas, when the end of time catches to all of us, we live with the knowledge of knowing something always could have gone better but we accept reality to prevent insanity.