the struggles of being a girl (╥﹏╥)

periods, shaving, acne, breaking nails, uneven eyebrows, creepy guys, unwanted dick pics, catcalls, thongs riding up our butts. AAAAAAAAHHHHHH! does it ever end? there's just so much that comes with being a girl and it's like no one understands it because we're all experiencing the same things but in different fonts. 

there's just so much trauma that comes from being a girl. if the magazines and media don't attack you, your m o t h e r will.  your life becomes a strict journey of rules, regulations and unjust decisions made for you. 

did it hurt when you were told to sit properly, don't cross your legs, keep your hair neat, be dressed up and all this while your male brother or cousins are allowed to do the exact opposite?

is it our fault for having so much pent up anger when everything is just so unfair? it makes girls just want to rip our skin and drown in acid. how cruel can society can be?

you know what makes matters worst? the fact that other girls aren't as forgiving. it becomes a competitive of who is better than who. ugh, the unnecessary things we have to go through.

we can't walk back home without having to constantly look around and hold our keys in-between our keys just so we're ready for an attack. we rush to our cars in parking lots and lock the doors as soon as we enter because someone might try to kill us.

thinking of going on a date? Be sure to send your location to your friends, the guys details and update your girls as much as you can incase the man is crazy and decides to do something psychotic. and if he is, it's your fault in the end because why did you go out with a stranger you met on the internet?

if you have big boobs and wear normal clothes, you're still a slut because big boobs. small boobs? Oh, you're in the same category as a small boy. 

if you're a young girl and you're posted online, pedophiles become your main audience. they display their bravery behind a screen to comment vile, disgusting thoughts without any remorse.  

it is 2024 and society deems themselves as "progressive" but really? have you seen the comments on girls Instagram posts?

when does it stop? when does the turmoil and ridicule of it all stop? 

what should love feel like?

love is not all sunshine and rainbows. it's coming back from a long day and knowing you're not alone. you don't have to eat your meals cold and alone. it's having someone to talk to before you sleep about anything and everything. love isn't butterflies in your tummy but a calm wave washing over you when you see them. it's peace like you have never known. 

for me, love is us vs the world. we fight against all odds to keep our peace and happiness. it's cuddling for a few minutes before starting our day together. it's the kisses and hugs before the sufferings of a job take over. it's the inside jokes that you make over the years. it's knowing that it is a team effort that will take us further for longer. 

sometimes, love is not all goody goods. it can be tiring, stressful, doubtful and forgiveness. your significant other is not you. they can't think like you or act like you because they just simply are not you. mistakes will be made and tears will flow but compassion takes over.

i believe that no matter how angry you are at each other, sleep on the same bed with each other every night. whether you are not facing each other or using separate blankets, just do it. when you fight, hold hands and argue. if you get tired of fighting, hug the other person. 

be understanding and mindful of one another. words thrown and actions acted upon cannot be retrieved. it can be forgiven but never forgotten.

so what should love feel like? everything. it should feel like a whirlpool of emotions as the years go by. 

dear diary

ugh everything is so messy and i feel just so UUUGGGGHHHHHH. do i really or am i starting to be delusional? is everything actually getting h...